Living with a health condition my whole life and not knowing what to expect on any given day has really taught me that life is short and to live life in the moment. I have tried to have a positive outlook everyday. I am human and sometimes I get caught up in the moment when life is not going my way. When I was younger I did not have a sound understanding of everything that was going on but I as I grew older, more and more of it started making sense. I have undergone many, many procedures that have helped me get to where I am today. Growing up with that hanging over me and my those closest to me was not easy and always nerve racking. Everyone always commented on how positive I was and am about the hand I have been dealt in this life. I am usually a very positive person but believe me I have had my moments of doubt. No one knows how long they will have here and although the doctors said I would not make it past one year of age I have surpassed that by 26 years which makes me so happy and hopeful. Modern medicine is ever changing and I am grateful for the possibilities it holds. I have been at a steady health pace for the last few years. I am seeing the cardiologist in November and I am sure the results will be the same but for how long it will stay that way who knows. I try not to think about all of that on a daily basis and just live life the best I can. When I married Adam I had tried to inform him of what he was taking on as a husband and that he would have to give up somethings that I didn't know if I would be able to find anyone willing to give up on having children of their own flesh and blood. When Adam told his family that he was intending on marrying me his mother cried because she was not going to be able to have a grandchild that looked like Adam. That saddened me just in the fact that I hurt like crazy for not having that ability but I was already disappointing her and I had not even joined the family. I am still struggling to find my place in the Collet family. While Adam and I were dating I would tell him often I couldn't wait to have a family of my own whichever way it came. I also told him that I never had the chance to have a puppy and that was definitely on my bucket list. When Nala joined our family in 2009 I saw that side of me as a mother figure to her and my capacity to love someone who was totally dependent on me and I loved that side of me. When Jett joined our family in 2011 my love only grew. They are the most precious puppies ever and they make life that much more amazing! I treat them like gold and I would want nothing less. I feel as though if I fail as a mother to them that I could not live with myself or live without them. They are a constantly happy. They remind me daily to stop and treasure moments and remember life is short and to live in the moment!
Recent moments in the Collet family we love and can't live without...
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