Lovin the {Love Sac}

We are now the proud owners of this:

on Sunday my cousins Curtis and Brooke mentioned they were selling their Love Sac..so we said consider it sold!! We have always wanted to buy one and we got a great deal so thank you to the best cousins ever! Once the basement gets finished hopefully later this year that will become its permanent home...but for now this is where it will be. 

{View} from my window

Usually when I blog this is the view I can see from my chair...isn't it wonderful!!! 

{click on photo to enlarge}

{Mini} Vacation

My Co-Worker Hollie is going to Disneyland and Six Flags next weekend with her hubby and niece and nephew and on Friday at work she suggested I join her. I would drive to California with them on Saturday and then fly home Monday night and then back to work on Tuesday. I would have to pay for my plane ticket and the park passes and food....not that bad!! I asked Adam and he said he would be fine with it as long as I paid it back with allowance which will take forever but oh well it's worth it. I was still tossing the idea around when Adam reminded we don't have our credit card yet, they were in process of sending a new one since we had some fraudulent changes on it...anyhow I told Hollie that if the credit card issue got worked out I would go but if not I would have to pass. That night I went to get the mail and sure enough the card was in the mail...for me that was a sign that I should go. I have never gone on a vacation with another family before so this will be interesting but... I am in desperate need of a vacation since my year has not started out the greatest. So last night I bought my plane ticket and my passes to Disneyland and Six Flags. I am doing this for me and It feels amazing. I will miss my Adam and Nala but It will be fun to get a mini vacation to hold me over until we go to Florida in May. I have never done anything like this before and I had tons of what if's but I can't let fear rule my life and therefore I am overcoming my fears and taking this as an opportunity to enjoy life and live it how I want!! So in week from tomorrow I will be at Six Flags Magic Mountain {I've never been there before}  

and then on Monday I will be at the Happiest Place on Earth enjoying life to the fullest 

I will a very fast and short vacation but it's a vacation and it will be so fun... I can hardly wait!!!

{Pictures and a post of my adventure to come...stay tuned}

{CRACKED}

So as most of you don't know Mr.C and I carpool to work...anyhow I was driving Thursday morning as we were arriving to my work I pulled up and got out of the car and shoved my phone in my pocket that already was full with the charger. The phone fit in my pocket so I didn't think much of it, I began walking into the building a few steps later I heard a crack like something had dropped and I looked down my phone had fallen out of the already stuffed pocket and landed face up on the road. I bent down to pick it up and this is what I saw. I couldn't believe it!! My screen was shattered and If it hadn't been for the screen protector my screen would have been in pieces everywhere. Once I realized it still worked I was a bit more relieved but I could hardly see anything at all. That night we went to the sprint store, I was happy to find out that I did purchase insurance on the darn thing and that it would only cost $100 to get a new one. I am happy to tell you all that I received my new phone in the mail today and its just perfect!! If you ever drop your phone like me you never know what its going to look like when you pick it back up..

{View}....From The Backyard...

This was the view from my back porch last night...

{Church}

Yesterday I went to church for the first time in months...and all by myself!! It took two tries but I finally made it to the right ward and although it was weird to sit all alone in a family ward, I did it and as I sat there all I could think about was how surprised I was that I actually had gotten up, gotten ready without any pushes or shoves. I was so proud of myself!! I did it...I did it... this may seem like something so silly to most but going to church has not been apart of our life for quite some time. Now that Adam will no longer be apart of that piece of me I have to face it alone and when you haven't been going for months and then have to go alone it's not easy! I only went to sacrament meeting but for now that's all I could do. I will work up to it and I hope it will become easier as time goes on. I know it will not be easy because as of now I don't know a soul there. For now I am merely a number, a face, a wayward soul, a girl trying to do what I know is right when it's really easy to not try. 

{Sunday Smiles}

I thought that I would post a picture that makes me smile....

I took this picture this afternoon and every time I look at it, it makes me smile!!

{Looking Forward}

I love looking forward to things and counting down the days until amazing things happen

 (most people do i suppose lol)

Anyway when I asked my work for a week off for our anniversary I had no idea how we would be spending that time and now that we have a set destination I am so excited to start the count down!! In about 4 months 1 week and 6 days to be exact we will be going to this lovely place called heaven on earth. It's not really called that but from looking at the pictures it looks pretty darn close.... just take a look for yourself..

This heaven on earth is called Jupiter Resort and Spa. We are going there May 27-31 2011!!

I have never been that far east let alone to that part of the good ol' US of A...we will be flying to Ft. Lauderdale and then driving an hour to Jupiter. Orlando is only a few hours away so we plan on spending a day there but mostly stay close to the resort and the beach. It has been 2 years since I have seen ocean and I can't wait!!! We are so blessed to be able to take a vacation like this and I'm sure I'll cherish every moment were there and maybe take a million pictures as well!! May can't come soon enough

So Far..So Good

It has been almost 2 weeks since I got the news that turned my world upside down...and although the feelings are still on the surface and if I even see a picture like this:

I'll burst into tears... but as far as everyday life is concerned so far so good. The challenges are yet to present themselves but in time they will and I'm not looking forward to that but I know I can face anything, I am a strong person stronger than I give my self credit for. 

{Rock Bottom}

{ I have worked on this post for what seems like forever since its hard to put into words.}

Whenever I heard the word Rock Bottom I never really understood until just a few days ago. I never wanted to find out either but that is just the way the cookie crumbles. At the beginning of the year most people make New Year's resolutions and this year was no exception. I will remember the events of the day forever....It started out as any other day we had a great time celebrating New Years Eve. I went to lay in bed, Adam followed and I could tell something was up but just didn't really think anything of it. He said there is something I need to tell you and I suddenly got nervous. He said I don't know how your going to react and what is going to happen but I am willing to accept the consequences. I got really nervous then! The next words that came out of my husband hit me like a ton of bricks. He said I don't believe in God anymore, I will be removing my records from the LDS church and I am now atheist. I didn't quite know how to react and was instantly numb. In my head I was thinking is this a joke and soon found I was wrong. I was in complete shock I had not seen this coming. He handed me a packet of papers that contained his explanation and other things that he wanted everyone to know. I read it silently and I shed some tears knowing that my forever family was probably going to be no more. I don't know why but for some reason I just wanted to go to sleep in case I was dreaming. The next day (Sunday) went on as normal I was trying to avoid it and didn't want to confront my future. Monday came and at this point nobody knew and I just had to tell someone and get some advice so I called my Grandpa. I tried to keep my composure as I was telling him that basically my world was crumbling around me. By the time the conversation was over I was sobbing. How could this happen I didn't understand. I felt a million things all of which were not good. I am still in sort of a disbelief and will be for quite some time and maybe forever I suppose. There is a lot of history behind this choice that my husband made dating back to his teen years and so this is not a drastic decision based on an event or person that offended him or anything of that nature, it has been in the making for years unbeknown to me. It was based on what he can and cannot believe and how he knows the world to work. Although I do not agree with his decision and it has saddened me greatly!  He still respects Mormons and other Christians and will stand by that. I know that he is still going to be the same person in most all other ways but this will always be apart of our future and how we handle situations that are to come is still a mystery to us. We will handle them the best we can. This is a whole new lifestyle change for the Collet family one that I am making everyday. I have chosen to remain married to Adam and to love him just like I always have. It WILL not be easy to be the only spouse going to church and I have struggled with that lately. That choice has not been taken away from me nor will it ever but It has now become even hard to face since I am doing it on my own. Yes I have family that love and support me and I am so grateful I do I couldn't handle this without them. They will continue to love Adam just as they always did. I know that people can change and I hold onto hope that one day his heart may change but for now he is being who he wants and believes he is and I am doing the same. Now that we have hit rock bottom I know that the only way to go is up, because I can't take being at the bottom anymore. This is all new and emotions are still fresh and raw. It is not something that I like talking about but I needed to get my thoughts into words and this is the best place for that. 

Welcome {2011}

Although I have no idea what this year holds for our little family but I am sure there will be many exciting things happening along the way!  

Here is a recent picture of my baby girl...